So this story starts from the time when I “yet again” had failed to clear any of the entrance examinations. Examinations that could guarantee a better higher education in India. A friend of mine knew that I had given another attempt at the examinations and he asked me about what college am I going to choose. I told him that I had a very bad score in the exams and I don’t think I will be able to pursue engineering. He told me that some regional colleges accept lower scores, If I want I can try them.
By this time one good thing was that I was very clear that what I really wanted. I wanted to be a computer professional, I wanted to learn more about them as in the past 1 year of my fake preparation for entrance examinations my interest in computers had grown as I was spending most of my time on the computer instead of with the books. So with this desire I was even ready to do a basic computer course, I decided that I will study on my own and learn more about computers. I will work and study through correspondence.
But I had also told my family that there is a possibility of going into an engineering college if I apply to regional colleges. So my family thought that it will be always better if I get a degree from a regular college than going for a job and non-regular degree.
Ok So I do as was suggested by my friend and pressed upon by my family, I applied to those colleges and yes I got an acceptance from one of the colleges. My another friend lets call him H, he was also in the same situation and on my advice he had also applied and he also got acceptance in the same college.
The day of enrolment
I reached the college which was in a very remote location in a village. I looked at the college it had two buildings with two stories each, this seemed to be very small for a college. I was desperate to get admitted in some college so I thought maybe I am looking from a distance that is why they are looking small(too silly a story to believe I know 🙂 ) and went ahead, mind you, this was the first ever time I was visiting an engineering college, I had no idea how they should look and what sort of facilities a college should have. Being an engineer was in fashion those days, people were of view that if you become an engineer your life is set and you will be paid handsomely and will have all the things that you need in your life. So yes that was something that I had heard too.
They took information from me and even took all of my school certificates that too in original. This was a mistake from my side and worse I didn’t even ask them for something in writing that they have my certificates. You please never do that. Never give your certificates like this to anyone. Later I will tell you why.
After the formalities were done and I had paid the first year fee. A lady(later on I got to know she was one of the teachers) came to me for taking me on a round of the campus, as if there was a campus! It was just small building with a few halls and rooms which they wanted us to believe is an Engineering college, I had created a very fancy image in my head about colleges and this was nothing like that, in a matter of minutes I was regretting taking an admission here. But I was feeling very helpless but yes I wanted to be an engineer!
The college days
1st day at college, they had organized an event for starting of the first session of the college(Oh, yes this was a new college and I was in its first batch). I saw other students there as well, which made it comforting that me and my friend H were not the only ones there(and possibly duped).
We didn’t had any idea what we were doing in the college. Me and and my friends didn’t go to college for half of the time and the time we went there we didn’t know why we have come there. I had also got to know that all of the students were like me, they didn’t do well in school and the entrance examinations to get into a decent college, so as engineering was fad, they came to whoever was offering them an engineering degree.
Astonishing Note(atleast it was for me): almost 30% of the CSE and IT students didn’t know “how to turn on a computer”!. Now I am not making this up, this actually happened, a teacher asked this exact question to all CSE and IT students and then classes were organized in which they were told that how to turn it on, what are the parts of a computer, what is an OS etc.
There wasn’t even a single teacher(yes I can’t call them professor) who had a post graduate degree. Almost all of them were fresh graduates out of similar engineering colleges(which don’t have any kind of future). As I wasn’t very regular at college, during this time, so I didn’t even pay heed to if the quality was good or not. I was having fun and enjoying my days with friends.
By the end of the 1st year(two semesters) I had already failed in 7 subjects out of 12. 🙁
I decided that I will change things I will work hard, I had long hairs which I cut short in a hope that it will improve my image in front of the teachers. I started attending college regularly, I became serious about studying and studies.
But now the lack of experienced teachers was really hurting, there was no teacher to guide me. All the lectures were monotonous, outright boring and the teachers were reading straight out from the book(even junior school teachers were better than them).
There were hardly any students that were good, which had that interest in the subjects we are studying. By this time I had got to know of various people and their reasons for being here :
- My dad wanted me to be an engineer so I am here( he had just somehow managed to pass his school exams)
- You get good dowry if you are an engineer.
- I was doing diploma in xyz, I heard that I can also become an engineer, so I am here.
- This will guarantee us a stable and smooth career.
- We had studied science in our school and we had no idea what else to do.
Ok so this made things even worse. But somehow now I was very determined to do good and do it for myself and my pride, my passion.